I go out of my way to be there
One of the main things people tell me before they get to know me is that they previously thought I was really mean or that I intimidated them. After people get to know me, they say that I am the “mom” of my friends. I think that once people get to know me they find that I care too much. Whether I’m overthinking little things or thinking 5 steps ahead, it’s often about something that I don’t need to worry about. Once I get to know someone better I go out of my way to be there for them and help out.
I think that much of how people first see me comes from usually having a stoic face. I don’t have grand expressions and am not very expressive of my own thoughts around people that I do not know very well. I usually just point the finger at being an introvert. I’ve always been insecure and conscious of how I act around other people. I obviously haven’t seen what I’m like from other people’s point of view but I think people might think that I have a cold personality because my resting face always looks like its mad. I also think that growing up in Asia has affected the way that I express to be more muted unless asked for. I just tend to be quieter and stay in the background until I feel comfortable doing the things I’m thinking of.
