I genuinely feel like I get a sense of joy

People see me as a pushover. They take my kindness for granted. I like to do things for my friends and some people look at that and think they can manipulate me to do things that aren’t very good for my wellbeing. I wish people would see me as someone who is genuine. I just want people to know that I do things because I genuinely care about the people around me and it comes from a place of kindness rather than a place of doing something because of what people tell me to do.

I really like to help people, and I know that’s literally the most cliché thing to hear from a nursing student, but I genuinely feel like I get a sense of joy when I get to benefit someone else. I think my friends think I am a helpful person and I work really hard to be kind to people. I also work really hard to be kind to people who I don’t know because I don’t know what their life is like, I don’t know what their day has been like. I just want to try to be the lightest part and I don’t want to make things worse for them.

I look up to people who are kind but also look up to people who are unapologetically themselves. I really respect people who don’t give a sh*t about what other people think. I respect when people will be outside of the box and do crazy things that no one has thought of before because that is what I aspire to be. I want to be weird. I want to be different. But not for the sake of being different but for the sake of unapologetically being myself. It took me awhile to try to find myself because I had always been known as the gymnast and gymnastics defined who I was. I had spent more hours in the gym than at my own house but now I try to be myself and try to put myself in uncomfortable situations to struggle and find out how to do things.